may she carry me through tough times, on and off the bike.

may she carry me through tough times, on and off the bike.

@6 days ago

depression came into my life like a lion and has taken a lot from me, in ways I never imagined. but it hasn’t yet taken away cycling. and i won’t fucking let it. 

@2 weeks ago with 2 notes
jort game: proper. fuck you, world.

jort game: proper. fuck you, world.

@3 weeks ago with 1 note
Things are looking up, finally. Have been able to ride the past 5 days or so with no hamstring pain. I have no idea how it improved so much in such a short time, but it did. Also had a bike fit done by the wonderful Johnny May at Twenty20 Cycling. Made some subtle changes which I can already feel making a difference on the bike. 
In retrospect, maybe I needed the time off, for my head. I’d put a lot of unnecessary pressure on myself this spring and was losing the love of riding. This winter has been tough for me, mentally. You know what they say about too much of a good thing. I’m excited for this season and have readjusted my goals to be both more realistic and more in line with what I’m capable of right now. I’m going to spend a few more weeks building up some fitness, but will likely make a return to racing at the RGS Title/Prosperity Mortgage Chantilly Circuit Race. Bikes are awesome, still. 

Things are looking up, finally. Have been able to ride the past 5 days or so with no hamstring pain. I have no idea how it improved so much in such a short time, but it did. Also had a bike fit done by the wonderful Johnny May at Twenty20 Cycling. Made some subtle changes which I can already feel making a difference on the bike. 

In retrospect, maybe I needed the time off, for my head. I’d put a lot of unnecessary pressure on myself this spring and was losing the love of riding. This winter has been tough for me, mentally. You know what they say about too much of a good thing. I’m excited for this season and have readjusted my goals to be both more realistic and more in line with what I’m capable of right now. I’m going to spend a few more weeks building up some fitness, but will likely make a return to racing at the RGS Title/Prosperity Mortgage Chantilly Circuit Race. Bikes are awesome, still. 

@3 weeks ago with 1 note

this past weekend of racing was rough in all the wrong ways. I’m not sure really what I was expecting, but it wasn’t that. it’s good for me, though. it’s facing me to come to terms with a lot of mental and physical shit I’ve been battling, including admitting that this tendonitis is a real issue and not something to be ignored. 7 days off the bike ahead to let it heal. am I looking forward to that? hell no. but it’s gotta be done.

@1 month ago with 1 note

Man, the past week or so has been awesome. The weather has been incredible and I was finally able to return to racing with a hard weekend of crit racing. Four races, two days. Fitness still has a long way to come, obviously. Still doing Page County but I won’t be race fit by then. Looking at also racing Tour of Mount Joy, which is about a month later and should give me time to race into form a bit.

For now though, life is good.

@1 week ago with 1 note

retail therapy is the best therapy. 

@3 weeks ago with 2 notes

I’m in a podcast. You should listen to it.

bonedeth:

So yeah, I still haven’t actually listened to this mostly because the sound of my voice weirds me out. But from memory we talk about a great deal of many things. 

Fake upgrade emails, peanut butter and sriracha, lots of north east bike racing, motivation, NCC crits, gear, nice guys with fancy cars and bikes, mean cat 1’s, the line between pro and amateur in cross, and a whole bunch of other stuff that I am probably forgetting about right now. 

So yeah… Listen to it. 

Brendan’s podcast is always awesome. Dan just makes it better, ATMO. 

@3 weeks ago with 20 notes
well, after a week of resting, icing, heating, and massaging, I went for my first ride in a week. in my head i expected it to be some blissful ride in the beautiful weather where my hamstring tendonitis was magically gone. not the case. after just an hour i felt it creeping back and once it started it just continually got worse. i stopped at the bike shop to schedule a fit on the way home and after stopping it flared up so bad on the ride home i could barely pedal. i’m not mentally stable enough for this. 

well, after a week of resting, icing, heating, and massaging, I went for my first ride in a week. in my head i expected it to be some blissful ride in the beautiful weather where my hamstring tendonitis was magically gone. not the case. after just an hour i felt it creeping back and once it started it just continually got worse. i stopped at the bike shop to schedule a fit on the way home and after stopping it flared up so bad on the ride home i could barely pedal. i’m not mentally stable enough for this. 

@1 month ago with 2 notes

grant’s tomb race report - dnf x 2. bad warmup, strong fields. got some work to do. 

@1 month ago with 1 note